Stellaism

2005-08-17T05:52:00.000-07:00

okay, so the horrid round of tests has passed.. how come i'm not happy? well, i guess there's really no reason to feel happy at all because it's like saying 'bye test! hi EXAMS!" what is there to feel happy about??

and it doesn't help that i also have aep coursework on my plate.. i'll never forget wat i did last friday.. i spent the entire afternoon sawing wood.. luckily i had liane and my mortal to help me along the way.. otherwise i'll really die.. i guess tat was the first time i ever experienced hand-ache.. yup.. muscle ache in the hand..

even though i've retired officially from cca, somehow, i'm still going home late as ever.. perhaps with the exception of a few days when i seriously feel brain-dead and need to go home early to sleep.. zzz...

tmr juniors going to their second dazu without us.. yup i sort of promised my sec ones i'll go visit.. and hopefully i still got enough energy left to climb all the way to m4-01 after the talk which we are all forced to attend.. if i run out of energy to go back down, u all must carry me hor! aiya.. i'm not worried abt dazu at all.. you all so smart, surely can make it one la!! no sweat, no sweat.. seniors are proud of u.. haha.. :D

2005-07-06T06:40:00.000-07:00

tmr's showcase!! gosh, i'm being both excited and paranoid abt it.. we must play up to the gwh standards we had during syf, plus it's like my second last performance wif nyco.. and i really want it to ROCK man! i can feel the cocoons in my stomach hatching into butterflies.. flutter, flutter, flutter..
and yes, hsh reminded me.. i was manicuring in the co room before syf.. dunno why but i think it has developed into a habit tat i always manicure before a performance.. last yr concert also like tat, except i had the time to manicure at home before coming to school.. now the nail clipper has become another pre-performance essential tool apart from my beloved tiao yin qi.. :D
sigh. shant blog anymore.. gotta rush my hw..

2005-07-03T01:15:00.000-07:00

i can't believe, and i also don't want to believe tat CO's going to end in just two week's time in my entire nanyang life. it seems like only just yesterday when guatpei, huixuan and yingxiang left us.. it just never occured to me tat one day yanting, fandi, xiaomeng and i will do the same.. the scary fact is that the very day is only two weeks away.

i really don't wanna think how life will feel like after that day, when there's nothing to look forward to when the bell goes for the end of school except revision, aep coursework and more homework..

at least for now i still have SYF showcase and FOA to look forward to. :D

2005-06-29T22:00:00.000-07:00

shallow.. despicable.. arrgh.. i hate this.

2005-06-24T07:52:00.000-07:00

i guess we all learn something new everyday. it really surprised me how much i've overlooked. perhaps it's really not enough to just know, but to really understand. anyway, i'm glad i made the effort to understand.

okay, i think no one knows what i'm writing about today except for myself.. but i'm not going to elaborate. this is all u r getting, so there! :D (ho shiao hong, before u laugh at me, at least i've blogged something.. :P)

2005-04-23T00:54:00.000-07:00

nyco emerged as top three COs, together with chinese high and dunman. i must be the latest to blog about this..

here's wad happened.. we had our last prac in the auditorium after morning assembly.. before tat i had furiously gobbled down an apple which xiaojun passed to me during the announcements.. haha.. thank you xiaojun. :) would u like a pear before ur syf? heez.. and thank you everyone who sent cute jiayou notes/cards/candies/smses.. :D the last audi prac went rather smoothly except i realised i took the wrong pipa with me.. well, i managed to get back my own pipa before boarding the bus that took us to SCH. throughout the journey everyone was quite calm and cool.. and yanting and i were busy prep-talking with our pipas. but yanting's pipa obviously was a little rebellious cos its first string broke inside the tuning room.. gosh, luckily we had one hour before the actual thing.. so huolaoshi helped her change her pipa string.

i never knew one hour can pass so fast.. soon, we are on stage.. at first my heart was thumping really fast when i saw so many pple watching.. but later on i managed to calm down and relax when the music started. it was really an unforgettable experience.. i felt so happy after xingkong.. especially when mrs ee gave us all a thumbs-up sign, telling us we'd done well. :) after fengnianji, we went down to pack our instruments and waited among the audience while the other schools performed.. man, it took a really long time before the results were announced. for some reason i just couldn't wait to hear it.. when the emcee finally entered the hall, i was already clutching sarah's hand.. my heart was in my mouth when he finished announcing the results of the school before us.. then we all heard what we've been waiting for since the start of the year.. "nanyang girls' high: GOLD WITH HONOURS"!! i was so happy.. i dunno why but i just started tearing.. i turned around to see tat many other people were also tearing like mad.. sarah was like the only calm and sane one at that moment.. :)

anyway, the next evening, my handphone erupted again with phone calls tat told me nyco, chinese high and dunman are the only COs tat got gold wif honours, and we are selected to perform for the coming syf opening! it was a success, really. but it didn't come easy. well, throughout this entire difficult course, there are really many people to thank.. juniors, seniors, friends, you helped make all of this possible. lurve ya all. :)

oh yes, the next ccas going for syf are the guzheng ensemble and string ensemble, all the BEST! :D

2005-04-11T06:20:00.000-07:00

whee thanks pple!! gosh, seeing those 'jiayou' tags really remind me of last yr's concert period.. :) anyway, today is feeb's bdae.. happy bdae my dear junior.. and tomorrow is caitong's bdae.. another dear junior of mine.. consider this as a double happiness. :) isn't it auspicious to have burfdaes going on right before syf? :) haha.. i'm crapping.. gotta go do hw le..

2005-04-09T21:25:00.000-07:00

i'm finally blogging after a good two and a half months.. my poor blog is so neglected by me.. but lots of thanks to pple who still come here to tag and remind me to blog even when i myself haven't been dropping by here a lot.. but i promise from now on, i won't neglect this place so much like before. anyway, i've changed my blog template (duh, obvious rite?), i think it sort of ties in wif syf and the stress it placed on all performing arts cca pple.. the greatest relieve is that i can finally get my tagboard back into it's original shape, rather than being squashed up in my previous template due to lack of space..

i send my utmost congrats to choir, who got gold wif honours for their syf and for being the first girls' school choir to get a gold wif honours. :) well done, choir!! i really hope CO will come back wif gold wif honours too.. speaking about syf.. thank you, my darling juniors, for all that emotional support over the past few weeks.. us seniors really appreciate it. :)

today is such a tiring day.. very tired after visiting two art exhibitions in a row.. shall blog more next time..

2005-01-25T05:09:00.000-08:00

yay.. i'm so happy. finally sectionals have been settled!! phew. woohoo we can still have hls!! the whole section spent the past few wks worrying abt tat.. now we can stop worrying.. :) tomorrow need to go for youth and media conference so can sleep in for half an hour more! mm, not much of a difference actually.. oh yes, and MEISI, i can't tag in ur tagboard!! hmm..

2005-01-18T21:50:00.000-08:00

happy b'dae shum!!

yay, we love shum, our dear da ma. went to look for her during first recess to pass her her present.. and we had a share of 4/10 peeps' cake for shum though we din pay for it. thanx a lot, guys! yummy.. ;)

2005-01-14T21:14:00.000-08:00

today's class breakfast was just totally fabulous! gosh, i really wish we can do this more often.. also, this morning is the most hetic one in my entire school life.. liane and i was supposed to bring plates, cups and cutleries.. but, i forgot about it totally.. and liane didn't come to school. and it turned out that jiang chuan was supposed to buy biscuits for her class and she too forgot about it.. so the two of us literally dumped our bags in the canteen and ran like mad for esso station to get the things.. what's most frustrating was tat it turned out esso mart don't sell paper plates etc. sigh. but luckily there's some left over paper plates and cutleries in the staff lounge. so that solved the problem. :)

after school was aep and cca. practice wasn't official today, and we ended up discussing sectional issues instead.. but seemingly to no avail. sigh. i'm feeling so lousy. this totally suck, i really don't feel like blogging about it.

2004-12-21T17:21:00.000-08:00

i'm sitting at home waiting to attend a party later.. ladeedum.. is listening to the concert cd. yar, it certainly makes me feel a little.. weird. it seems like just yesterday the whole co was performing on stage for sizuqingyun 2004. and yesterday i was sending and replying smses to my dear senior, huixuan, in malaysia, it felt like just a moment ago we were at our pipa lunch--last lunch together wif the sec fours. then sooner than we think, in fact in a matter of a few months, we will in turn be 'sent away'. gosh. sobs.. make me feel so old. i wanna be junior again.

well, anyway, i'm supposed to blog abt co camp. have been to a few people's blogs over the past few days and realised many have already blogged about co camp. i must be one of the last to blog about it...

Day One
dazu: fengnianji.
xiaozu: had some crazy time in the classroom becos some doodoohead (yanting) wrongly accused me of hiding her can of whipped cream.
wet games in the afternoon: well.. wet.
Night trail: tiring. surprisingly, i didn't get freaked out by the eerieness of the 3rd floor corridor near the lockers.. er.. maybe was too busy scaring other people to get myself freaked out.. peishan and zhiting did a great impression of ghosts by lighting up their faces with torches from below. and jiangchuan set off wif a bloody hand.
actually, we found out tat it didn't take very much to get some people scared. just hide behind something and jump out when they approach your hiding place.. eh, tat was exactly what I did wif some of the groups.. our station was quite successful with some groups that came, in fact, the only group tat didn't get scared was the group from xyz..

later that night, we had a mini section chat. it definitely reminded me of the days when we still had daisy and peiyuan around.. we used to do tat a lot.

Day two
dazu: fengnianji again.
xiaozu: piaing for huibao
huibao: half of it was held in the LT and half of it was in M4-01.. sigh. really dun feel like elaborating on it. it's just.. quite disappointing.. can't believe we let stage fright screw it up for us.. i realised the thing about pro people isn't just the skills, but also the ability to conquer stage fright.. i mean, before the huibao we were still quite confident, but when we get on stage, suddenly everything that we practised flew out of the window. especially for ganhuahui. we just lost everything for tat piece..

Day Three
Dazu: fengnianji again
CO idol: haha.. i really feel like laughing for this one.. one night of preparation brought amazing results.. it's like.. can you believe it? our grp got first.. hohoho. everything was so impromptu, and in the end our performance was like a rehearsal.. wif lotsa NGs in between.. i was one of those bimbos at the gambling den. and faith suggested tat we walk with one foot in front of the other, and flick our hair at the audience.. right before we were supposed to flick our hair, zhiting dropped the cards, so everyone went to help her and we had to do the 'catwalk' again.. later on i was told that some of the audience thought that was supposed to be part of the show.. heh.
i felt tat the xyz and yangqin pple's item was pretty good.. yupyup, so all in all, day three was a day full of laughter and was a good roundup for the camp. so there.. ;)

2004-12-13T06:52:00.000-08:00

co camp is due in a day's time! whee. nicenice. maybe i will rejoice even more if i had finished my physics homework. sigh. i really don't know wat to do abt it. there's only 17 days left in total of this dec hol so it makes no sense to chuck it aside any longer.. arrgh. the next worry is.. co idol!! gosh, haven't start preparing yet.. haven't even formed a group yet!

and for huibao, i think i really need to wear a hairband on tat day or cut my fringe really short.. today pipa did a run through for our huibao songs.. throughout the entire thing i was busy sweeping my fringe off my face and looking really grouchy about it.. somehow the huibao being held in the audi makes me feel nervous.. such a big space.. (wad if pipa isn't loud enough?) the part of huibao i'm really looking forward to is gan hua hui. :) lalala..

oh yeah, how can i forget the mini performance at sheraton towers? it was quite interesting, especially the food.. yumyum.. it was pipa's first high tea together, on such bouncy cushiony chairs.. at such a grand place. :) and for the first time, the six of us who went had to perform at such close distance wif each other.. i mean, literally, we were squashed together on stage (like sardins, according to yanting).. but the entire trip to sheraton towers was great. yup, so hope we will get to do more of tat..

opps.. and i realised karen's 'brotherhood' vcd is still wif me.. guess i can only return her the vcd when school reopens.. if i cannot go for the 2/1 gathering tomorrow..

2004-12-07T07:10:00.000-08:00

hmm.. was intending to go watch NAC today, but cos it's starting and ending too late, i didn't go in the end.. anyway, i need to stay at home to get some serious work done. :p wonder if NAC was nice to watch or not..

anyway, yanting just called a couple of hours ago to shock me wif the news tat she's also skipping huibao this yr.. sigh. the remaining pipas, jia you ba!

2004-12-02T19:54:00.000-08:00

so tagboard is down again. but tat's not the main point.. TAUFIK is s'pore idol! whee!
anyway, went to helen's house on tues (lurve ya house!) where we baked a cute un-burnt chocolate cake with cherries and a candle stuck on top. watched shrek 2 on dvd in the mean time when the cake was still baking itself in the oven..
really too tired to blog a long entry today.. i'm sick.. bleah. :(

2004-11-24T22:45:00.000-08:00

watched princess diaries two with dor yesterday! that movie was very nice, except that it's maybe a little too fairytale-like, with typical fairytale happy endings for everybody, except the bad guys.

that was actually a backup plan to make sure i don't bore myself by staying at home (really need to thank dor for keeping me company :) ), in case helen calls off the baking day on tuesday, which case she did.. but we are making up for that on next tuesday. :) yay.

right now i'm trying my best to tidy up my room, honestly, it's in an incredible state. meanwhile, of course, i'm taking a break to blog.. ;) i'm missing sentosa's sun. planned to go to sentosa this morning before cca with fellow darling aepers, but bcos i was assigned this major task of tidying up my room.. i just gotta stay at home..

lets see.. there are other things i can do at home before i have to leave for cca.. for example calming my soul before i meet my monster pipa sec ones, who are so pro at driving their seniors crazy.. or mayb i could just keep blogging? nono.. i need to tidy up my room now..

seeya, dear blog!

2004-11-20T01:00:00.000-08:00

two weeks of work experience has past so now i'm back to being an ordinary nanyang girl whose holiday life only revolves around cca and movies and going out. speaking about going out, sometimes i really scare myself. only a quarter of the holiday has past and i've been out more than i've done in the whole of last year. i can't believe it-- now i do love shopping..

anyway, i was supposed to blog about WEP. i really missed working at J4. i already told yanting that, if i didn't turn up for cca on monday, i most probably forgot that WEP has ended and headed for work like i've done for the past two weeks. in two weeks i've sort of grown attached to the workplace and the people there, and of course, not to forget the food. yummy. i must say i really want to stay there for a longer period of time.

but as always, good things will come to an end somehow and there's no stopping it. guess i'd better go and continue to work on the nyco contact list.. :) i'm looking forward to Baking day at Helen's house. whee!

2004-11-01T03:33:00.000-08:00

the exam period came and passed, once again, my life is back to normal. as always, life is full of surprises (good and bad). i've had my share of pleasant surprises for some subjects in terms of results, but about the lousy ones... hem hem... i really have nothing to complain, considering i started studying exactly one night before the actual paper..

anyway, life is now back to normal. cca, movies and the radio has returned to my life.. comic books has somehow also found its way in.. thanks to xiaojun and her slamdunk craze.. ;) also, i've got my piercings.. well, that was really long ago, but, oh well.. since i haven't been blogging since a hundred years ago.. (somebody got a little impatient eh??)

my birthday (squeals and points to the top left corner of my blog) has also came and passed (now that was seriously a long time ago...). thanks to everybody who gave me presents, sang the lovely birthday song and wished me a good year ahead.. (special thanx to eleen, jiang chuan and tong chong for the pouch and earrings, to stock up before i even got my piercings; special thanks to dor for the beautiful gift-a-name chain; and helen for the lovely white hair accessories..). :)

Regina, meisi, grace and i had a great time at wanting's house on Halloween night. we went trick or treating!! whee! that was indeed a night to remember... handfuls and handfuls of candy dumped into our paperbags.. by the time we were done, the paperbags weigh seriously a lot. special thanks to wanting's mom for the lovely dinner too!

2004-09-18T06:36:00.000-07:00

You won't believe what we did on Mid Autumn

neither can i.. i can't believe we actually spent half an hour of the night scraping of candle wax off cement. oh well.. but it was an experience.. something 2/1 '03 hasn't done before until last night. funny how 2/1 '03 people always end up doing funny things. :)

2004-09-04T19:05:00.000-07:00

Lost: Bonesetter's Daughter

Live's over and exam's coming. sigh... and i haven't start studying yet. dunno wat's wrong wif me this year. last yr, i would have started piaing for exams 2 months before the actual thing. *eyeballs pop out* so hardworking rite? but this yr, i hardly haf a month left and i'm still piaing late school work... :p bleah. oh no... and on top of everything, i lost my Bonesetter's Daughter, my lit text. i'm not sure if i've written my name on it... how am i going to study for Lit? oh dear, why must this happen before the exams?

2004-09-01T01:59:00.000-07:00

teachers' day celebrations is over. mer was really stressed about this whole thing. but everything turned out pretty well so mer deserves a pat on the back. *pats*.haha. okie, shan't blog anymore le. gotta study. :p

2004-08-18T02:20:00.000-07:00

great..i flunked my physics test again. sigh. i must be the last person to blog about nyco concert, which took place last last last last week. i missed the concert man. and on top of everything i miss the seniors! Huixuan, guatpei and yingxiang and of course all the other sec fours from other sections. to seniors if they come here: Must come back hor!!! after the concert, sectionals have resumed and once again we found ourselves practising songs like huan le de ri zi, gu xiang de tai yang and tian shan zhi chun. seeing the sec ones makes me feel so old man.. it's like just two years ago we were just like them. :) *beautiful memories* ahh... it's kind of scary to think that next year, and in fact in a matter of 10 to 11 months, we will be leaving co just like the seniors did to prepare for the exam that will determine our lives. *shock! horror!*
i really wish i will pass my retest for both maths and physics. wish me luck yeah?

2004-07-21T20:26:00.000-07:00

argh... 2 days left... can't believe it. its like a moment ago, we were still enjoying our june hols, and there was still the big fat number 20 on the board in m4-01, so suddenly it's been reduced to just a 2. it's so fast! it's this saturday!

2004-07-13T23:00:00.000-07:00

sometimes late in the night, a tide of emptiness rush over me. there are times i feel like crying, wif no reason at all. tonight, as i am typing this, i am playing this song which i listened to since P5. it never failed to make me cry everytime i listen to it, well, until now. strangely, tonight, i didn't shed a tear. why is it so hard...even to cry?

2004-07-10T19:46:00.000-07:00

sumthing's wrong wif tagboard, i can't tag in it! whew, yest's youth day funfair was so fun, but considering the mood i was in when i got home, i didn't care much to blog abt it yest. well, yesterday morning i woke up at 4.40am.. to get the crabsticks done... reached school at abt 6.40am. we all wore our very cool class tee.. i never knew making sushi can be so fun. grinz. i seriously think cher and liuqian are meant for the kitchen man. especially liuqian, while the rest of us are struggling wif the rice stuck to our fingers, her fingers are absolutely clean. actually arh, the way we make our sushis look really gross kae, but i guess the sushi sold well in the end--tat's bcos they didn't see how we made it! hahaa...

we didn't manage to finish making the sushi before flag raising, so before flag raising, we were still busying with the rice.. when a teacher told us to run to the quadrangle before he label us as late, we had no time to wash our hands, which had a mini rice ball attached to every finger.. so we kind of had a hard and funny time saying the pledge, you know, we had to put our fists to our chests.. so our fists looked...well, riceball-like. haha.. after tat, regina started sucking on her fingers to clean off the rice, den when she's almost done wif hers, she started eating the rice off my fingers... huiqing and cherlyn were kind of horrified. ;) haha. the potato people did a really good job man, cos the potatoes really did sell well! gr8 job! :)
visited 3/10's stall. liane and i each picked a stencil for a glittery tatoo. kaiying saw me queuing up and took my stencil and stuck it to my neck and told me i should get the tatoo done there. kk.. so in the end, i got a butterfly done on my neck. :)

well, so tat was yesterday. today during lunch time, we saw the band playing outside canteen. the band pple are so cute! the sec ones put up a really cute dance.. den the pple playing the musical instrus had to stand up half way thru the song to play. so cool rite? imagine strapping our pipas to our shoulders like a guitar.. eh.. ;) nono.. we'll probably break our necks.. the band rawks! gd luck band members (for band fiesta~).

2004-07-09T21:36:00.000-07:00

These few days very the tiring arh. haix, dor is asleep. i wanna talk to her. too bad. she's asleep. i am storing up so many things inside i think i'm going to explode soon. sigh, why is it so hard to find someone to spill everything to? CO concert is due in 14 days. i really hope that my period of depression will pass real soon. i seriously don't want it to spoil my performance. after all we have all practiced so hard for this.

2004-07-03T06:58:00.000-07:00

today co practiced in the auditorium in the morning. i came to school at supposedly 8:45am. den i was so puzzled cos there wasn't any pipa pple around..sigh, thought i was the first to arrive...(fat hope). den turned out that they are all in the auditorium already.. grr. it turned out that my watch is slow again! so i was actually the last to arrive. okie. now i know yingxiang hates green chilli and huixuan and phoebe loves green chilli. see, i learn something new everyday, like xie huan says. yingxiang gave me all her green chilli, so my fried rice ended up so loaded with green chilli that yanting say i'm eating green chilli with rice, not the other way round. about the previous match, yea, i was a little bit surprised greece won...unexpected things happen all the time, don't they? fang pai is so nice! yingxiang was really hyper today, telling me how fun fang pai is. hee hee, this is the only piece in which tanbo was told that we were good. :) caina's solo rox! sigh... only 20 more days to concert..a few more practices before the sec4s leave us forever.. yingxiang told me that we would probably all hug and cry together on the night of concert, like what we did on the night of arts fest when peiyuan and daisy officially left co. oh no.. i'm not sure if i'm prepared for that. sigh, to think that we are going to be the oldest of the population in no time is so pressurising. i want to be a junior again.

2004-06-16T21:00:00.000-07:00

i'm sitting in the computer lab now.. listening to some sec ones talking about "stella" haha... i didn't know there's another stella in sec one.. i thought i am the only stella in nanyang. so farny... i guess if someone who knows me walk in now and call me, they would be so shocked. :P

2004-06-12T23:01:00.000-07:00

today is a day of many realisations, and regrets. this morning, we went for mega concert prac at mandai hill again. this time lianing huanxin2004. i saw Lifen! i spotted her for quite a while already. she noticed me staring at her so she turned to face me, but she didn't recognise me at first. later on i mouthed her name den she realised who i was. this made me recall those days we had in dazu in primary school when we were both playing the zhong ruan. actually we were both playing liuqin from the very start, but when we reached p5, the instructor made us play zhongruan instead, since the fingering is the same for both instruments. Lifen had always sat next to me in dazu.. suddenly i miss her a lot. we made use of this chance to exchange hp nos. yea man, so now i can contact her le. :) i realised i haven't been really treasuring a lot of things in my life. of all those years of being together with Lifen, i took it for granted; now that it has become a part of history, i regret. and those days when peiyuan and daisy were still with us, i never showed appreciation for their presence, until the night of the Arts Fest, our last night of really being together as NYCO pipa section before they leave nanyang. i really cried my heart out... out of regret.
when i got home today, i dug out many things from the long untouched drawer. the first thing that caught my eye was the card Guan wei made for me on my birthday in my p6 year. most of the glitter has came off, but otherwise the cards is still considered well preserved. Guan wei sat beside me for one semester in chinese class in our p6 year. yea, we often fight, and i remembered there was a period of silent treatment between us. i refused to talk to her, or was it she refused to talk to me? or both. but anyway, in the end she got fed up and wanted to call for truce.. i think i refused that too (i really wonder why now). so that coldness between us hung on for quite a while, even up to the day before my birthday. how she really surprised me was that on the day of my birthday, she managed to produce this really beautiful and glitterly (though not anymore) card before me. she only learnt my birthday a day before the actual day, which means she spent one night making that card for me. gosh. she must have worked like siao. the first time i saw that card, i felt so touched and so kind of.. guilty.. now i'm seeing this card again, and i feel like kicking myself. i m so filled with regret.
i really ought to start treasuring things in my life. even the slightest things, because these very little things will make a significant difference in a later part of my life.

2004-06-09T20:34:00.000-07:00

ahem.. i'm back.. yay! finally i can blog again. tuesday was such a tiring day. we went for CO mega concert practice at mandai hill camp. practicall spent the entire afternoon and evening there. i was huning away.. sigh.. must go home and practice more. yesterday peiyuan came back during our dazu practice. she's soooo chio okay. she gave us each a choker. :)

i'm so dead. i haven't touched on so many SIA tasks.. sigh..gotta go to school almost everyday. i have no life.

2004-05-17T04:51:00.000-07:00

wah.. i so long nv blog le. help me, i've been flunking so many subjects. why is physics so hard? sigh, admit it.. mayb i am just not good at it. i've been saying this for a number of times, but i shall say it again.. sorry to whom it may concern, i wasn't in my best mood for the past few days, during conversations i may sound sian or look sian... or even act hostile.. dun take it to heart.. eh, i'm truly sorry. i'm really upset by all these things that are happening around me.. not to mention academic results.. its all those changes thats happening around me that kept me confused. its like everything around me is so fast-forwarded and i'm the only one playing slow mo..mayb its bcos i'm getting old.. haix. sad life :P

2004-05-07T07:50:00.000-07:00

went with dor and eleen to kap today. thanx dor and eleen... for all tat laughter.. haha..
but now, here i am, sniffing away in my tissue paper... i dunno why but after reading dor's entry in our combined blog, i started to tear. it's not that i feel down or anything, it's just that kind of feeling which u cannot pinpoint exactly what. i think i am going to have a hard time falling asleep tonight as memories of those days will sure come flooding back to me the moment i off the lights, and mayb i'll wake up tomolo morning wif puffy eyelids... hmmph... doing nzq wif puffy eyelids... dor and i will b working on our sculpture tomolo afternoon.. what i'm looking forward to tomolo is the cheering session and the lunch after sports meet. haha.. sumone can't wait to hear e TCH pple cheer eh? lol...

2004-04-30T07:44:00.000-07:00

it's dor's b'dae today, we presented her the one ring, u know, e one in lotr? yea man, special gift for dor's special day. whee! kinda reminds me of bilbo baggin's b'dae party, so i shall call ah dor bilbo for today.. haha, i m very lame... wah, this april so many pple celebrating b'daes, got steff, xiao meng, yongxian, charmaine, suwan, fandi, zhengyuan and dor. phew, i'm so glad april's over... heez.. u guys costed me quite a lot u know... :p todae we oso presented a pair of earrings frm 77th street to zhengyuan as a very much belated b'dae gift for her. jiangchuan, xinyi and me love zhengyuan!! haaz.. yeash... i know, i know, i havent been blogging for quite a while, eventhough i said i would blog, well, more often... well.. hmm... nvm. this week isn't quite eventful as last wk was. monday was, well, quite mundane.. tues was fun! meisi, yongxian, jiang chuan, qingyi and i went to kap to eat after our international science quiz.. meisi the entertainer and composer composed on my hp, den got one was so funnie we couldn't stop laffing.. yongxian laff until her entire face turned red.. qingyi was eating her burger and watching the tartar sauce dripping from her burger.. drip drip drip.. wednesday was ... hmm, i can't remember, must be mundane oso.. thursday was quite interesting, during recess, yanting, suwan, meisi and i were chatting in e canteen and half waiting for the bell to ring.. we talked abt creepy stuff.. den dunno why yanting suddenly brought up e topic of the fourth dimension.. interesting but well.. creepy. den we talked abt supernatural stuff and suwan decided to go away for a while until we finish off on tat topic.. den later on, suwan told us abt 'The Portrait of Dorian something..', yanting talked abt the bermuda triangle.. dunno why, but the whole day was v creepy.. first of all, we talked abt creepy things during recess, den later on during cca, sabrina came into the room where we were practising and told us the latest news tat another road collapsed in s'pore.. after cca, when tongchong and i went home together, the sky was totally packed wif gloomy clouds and looking menacing.. creepy or wat?

2004-04-22T05:21:00.000-07:00

Photos, Contert and Bio Test

whee.. so long never blog le, sum pple getting impatient erh? as if... haha. u thought i abandoned my blog izzit? no lar, a blog comes in handy when u are stuck at home with nobody to crap to... saturday got bio test, havent study yet.. the past few weeks were quite eventful.. too bad i haven't been blogging abt them. but nvm, i shall blog about them if i can recall them... yesterday our faces appeared on lian he zao bao, den before i even reached mi classroom in e morning, hanyun called out to me as i walked past her class to tell me she saw me on e photo... liuqian even got quoted! whoa. yanting and many others went to the HC/TCHS concert at the esplanade yesterday, i got a ticket but in e end never go.. cos mom dun allow, den i gave the ticket to jiang chuan's friend. hope she enjoyed it. haha.. i'm sure she did.. cos yanting and yongxian and even helen were crazy over their performance, especially their percussion parts.. jasline told me that hong lou meng was nice.. i heard that the HC or TCHS percussionists are coming over to help out in our wind/percussion piece in our up-coming concert. :)
here i am, sitting at home nice and warm. everything is fine except for that up-coming bio test which is bugging me right now...sigh.. betta go and study soon, otherwise -- *slits throat*.. haix, sad life.

2004-04-02T06:21:00.000-08:00

haiz.. i know i said i'll change mi template soon.. but seeing e tight schedule i have, it is seemingly impossible for me to do it anytime soon. hmm. i've moved! but not to worry cos mi tel no is still de same. this term got a lot of changes in mi life.. first e changing of seats, den me moving house... i'm still getting used to all these changes.. sumtimes i go to sch in e morning wif mi head in a blur cos i just woke up frm my nap on e bus, thinking tat i still sit right at e back of e class.. den when i go home... same thing, juz woke up frm e nap on e bus (yar.. i sleep a lot on buses), turn e wrong direction and end up at e wrong block... take e lift, take e wrong turn and end up at sumone elses' doorstep.. hmm.
yesterday was april's fool day. we played pranks on e teachers. for bio lesson, half e class swoped class wif half of 3/2 pple.. 3/2 was having english lesson then... later on mr tan asked us to change back cos he wanna conduct a proper lesson, so e prank was paused for a moment. a few minutes later, jack screamed 'cockroach!' and gave mr tan a fright.. for physics lesson we turned our chairs the other way round to face the back of the classroom. we pinned up a piece of majong paper on the notice board and labelled it 'whiteboard'... den the whiteboard became 'noticeboard' haha.. miss ang played along wif us, so cool. den she had to teach at e back of e classroom. cos we didn't have english lesson yest so we had to play a belated april's fool prank on mrs seah today. suwan made 'mrs seah' nametags for e whole class to wear during english lesson.. den mrs seah came in and got a pleasant surprise to see so many mrs seahs in e classroom.. todae recess i saw 3/10 rehearsing some funnie thing at e podium.. heard frm tongchong tat it's something they were made to act out for international friendship day. xiaole was acting as a rich man, i think, den later got killed by some bad guy... corny. her line was: wo shi shi jie shang zui xing fu de ren..english lesson todae was so fun! cos suwan did not attend e previous el lesson when we watched rashomon, she had to watch it today so she can write e eyewitness report. liuqian and regina were accompanying her in e media resource room. helen and i decided to be kapo and went inside to 'accompany' them and watch e movie again.. helen and regina were so funnie!! regina kept trying to dig e actors' nose and helen kept making up funny theories on e murder case in e movie...suwan and i was laughing all throughout e movie bcos of helen and regina.. liuqian was seemingly e only sane and focused one. cos she managed to complete half of her eyewitness report while e rest of us went crazy...sch ended early for mi class todae.. cos physics was e last lesson of e day, den miss ang had to leave early so we were dismissed early. whee... i was almost falling asleep during aep lesson todae, den by e time i went for cca, i was like a zombie already. i was in totally no mood to do anything else but sleep or eat or take a bath..ugh... tomolo still must wake up v early cos i'm helping out in e sec 2's chinese camp...haiz, sad life.

2004-03-25T23:37:00.000-08:00

yo yo! i'm back... hahaz. so long nv blog liaoz.. sum pple getting impatient arh? haha.. as if. we changed our sitting positions in class on wednesday. i am now sitting wif meisi right at the front of the classroom.. haha.. it's really my first time sitting at the front row. feel so weird... my seat is closest to the door. haha, so if i do anything illegal in class, anybody can just walk pass and catch me.. heez. :P

2004-03-13T16:10:00.000-08:00

OBS TOTALLY ROX MAN!!

yo! came back frm obs yest.. haiz, only five short days and so much to look back on. i met lixiang, a co senior, on e bus to school on monday, den she asked me if i can pack her inside mi bag and take her along wif me to obs.. haha. :) she was from mobile too, den she told me how fun obs was, including e yucky bits... heez. i was in Battuta watch. mobile! yeah babe! battuta was a traveller, so our watch was named after him. e pple in mi watch were Li Bing, Rachel, Sarah, Man Ying, Jacqualine, Xiao Meng, Han Yun, Tong Chong, Jennifer, Cheng Shan, Ye Zi, Joanne, Yu Jun and Ying Hai. Li Bing, Jacq and Man ying were mi tent mates. haha... we slept in e flimsy tent for two nights. but surprisingly e tent didn't collapse on us, phew... aniwae, on e first dae, while waiting for e ferry to transport us to pulau ubin, cher, mer and qian told us lotsa creepy stories, suwan got freaked out. yar, i got freaked out too.. heez. esp e 'eye' story.. urgh. den we reached pulau ubin, and it was raining!! hmm. den we met e instructors, mi instructor was sharon, but rachel started calling her aunty sharon, so we all ended up calling her aunty sharon. heez. after ransacking e battuta store rm everybody was tired le. we went for some climbing activities, packed e food provided, den started pitching e tents. cos it was raining so heavily in e night, we didn't get to sleep in e tents.

on e second dae we went kayakking. sharon taught us e 'wet exit', den we went on a capsize drill. later on we oso did the jetty jump. so fun!! SO FUN!! :) haha. i wanna go back to obs. sobz. later on we went to climb e triple D. i got freaked out by it... cheng shan and jacq both very li hai, cheng shan showed courage when she helped ying hai all e way up to the top, and jacq herself can reach e third step when she stand on e first step!! omigosh. SO LI HAI!!! after tat, we trekked from campsite 2 to campsite 1, where the resi pple stayed. finally, we got to sleep in a tent. we literally coated ourselves in mosquito repellent.. sumone joked tat we paid 3 hundred over $ to get there to feed e mosquitoes... i got bitten all over my body, so now i am itching all over..

the third day, we climbed e inverted tower... i paired up wif sarah, she threatened me all e way up to e tires.. haha. but honestly, i wouldn't have made it there if without aunty sharon's encouragements and sarah's consistent threats.. :) after lunch, we went for a 'treasure hunt'. for e first time, we were the first watch to reach our destinition.. haha. the third campsite does not have a toilet like the other campsites do, so guess wat, we had to dig a hole in e ground to do our 'business'. we cooked rice tat nite, got a slight burnt smell.. hmm..but still v nice. :)

the fourth day is the most tiring day. we went on a sea expedition. we kayakked for ten and a half hours, now my arms and shoulders are aching like mad. in e morning e sun was burning us all. i got so tanned an red, vic said i looked like a lobster. den later it started raining, we were shivering like mad lor, so cold... and most of us were only wearing our pe tee and shorts and we were wet all over. a few girls got a bit sick on the kayak and we had a few emergency cases. the back washes were quite scarry, cos it was raining, e sea water was rather choppy. there was also thunder and lightning. vic told us to kayak close together unless we want afro hairstyle. when we finally reached e destination, me and man ying were so happy lor. but not for long, cos we had to do 'hard labour' and carry e kayaks back. tat nite was probably e most memorable nite, cos aunty sharon cooked for us magie mee wif baby corns. :) yumm!! aunty sharon totally rox! i think she is e most approachable instructor i've ever came across. yar, in fact, i think all e instructors there are very nice. :) ladeedum... e last day, all we did was to wash up stuff and pack up.. sobzz...

haiz. now i understand why all my seniors lurve obs so much le... cos i oso wanna go back. on e last day e pple in my watch presented certificates to each other. li bing got mine and i got hers, so we presented it to eachother. haha. but den, like li bing said, e real cert is inside our body and mind, heart and soul, sumthing we carry wif us for e rest of our journey...

2004-03-06T22:30:00.000-08:00

chatting on msn now... haix i so forgetful, left mi maths textbk in sch when i haf maths hw to do.. siew mun not at home so i cannot go to her house and borrow frm her. haiz, so tomolo i needa go to sch really early man.. :( sad life... but on e other hand, tomolo is e start of obs! yay! i'm excited. i hope i'll get nice instructors. heez. i haven't finish packing yet. we got our class tee le! sho cool, got e calligraphied one on e back. liyou rox! write until so nice. :)

2004-02-28T10:03:00.000-08:00

the family tree of 3/1 is getting complicated... first i'm mer's laogong, den became cher's b/f, den now i'm oso yanting's lao ma... and yanting is actually mer's grandpa... so which generation do i belong to har? i so luan le... :) haha...

2004-02-28T09:47:00.000-08:00

so long never blog le.. haha, jannah came to visit my blog, i wonder how she managed to track me down...probably got to me frm sumone elses's blog. haix, just finished mi physics test, i din manage to finish, sobz. yest had social studies test. i crapped the entire test lor. :(

pei yuan and daisy came back yest. daisy has long hair again!! whee! so cute. our new sec one juniors kind of remind me of daisy and peiyuan. haix, the good old days. i saw fang yu and yun su and many other seniors... but i din see kellie leh. i only wish peiyuan and daisy will come back to ny more often. we lurve u, peiyuan and daisy!!! :)

liane's sitting behind me now... chuckling as i type these very words... *stop chuckling!!!* :) haha. i'm thinking about what to write for my chinese poem now. this week is so eventful man... so many things happened. though not all of them are unpleasant, i'm still glad that the week is finally coming to an end.

2004-02-11T04:18:00.000-08:00

heez... yay! i'm going out wif ah dor and liane and (probably) helen on saturday morning.. considered as valentines date arh? but in the afternoon i haf a date wif CO. haha... :)

2004-02-09T04:52:00.000-08:00

ling called just now for a chat... talked abt our lives... she sounded surprised when i told her i've been feeling down for e past few days. den she told me i am e last person on earth she expected ever to be depressed. dotty dotz... hello, i'm a human too. i dun wear mi depression on mi face... but there are times when i get upset. ling seems to b happy wif the way her life is right now. :) yeah ling, stay happy. all the best to you.

2004-02-09T04:27:00.000-08:00

haha.. valentines is arnd e corner... sumone i knoe is feeling really excited... haha... but i'm not supposed to tell who. aniwae, my class is playing a blind date game in honour of valentines... supposed to draw a name frm a box, whoever's name is written on e piece of paper u pick, u r supposed write to tat person for a wk, w/o letting e person to know who u r... i wonder who got me.. helloz pple out there, WHO GOT ME HAR? grin... :) i feel like giving something to mi mortal... but so long nv write to her le, mayb she forgot she ever had an angel... haiz. but i think i'll get her something aniwae.. i promised her last yr. btw, i m still available on valentines... any takers? grinz.

my current status: tired

2004-02-07T03:48:00.000-08:00

todae so suay. i was in cwp wif mi mum...was on e escalator smsing joelyn, mi senior. den suddenly a gurl (i dunno her) pounced on me frm behind. gave me such a fright! i jumped and lost grip of mi hp...den it went thump thump thump down e escalator. she went down to help me get it, den she told me she mistook me for sumone else... haha so funnie, last wk sumone in sch oso mistook me for sumone else..mayb it's mi hairstyle... quite common.

was practising fang4 pai2 and pi2 pa2 ge1 juz now...fang pai is really nice... pipa ge oso quite nice. kinda eerie, e time signature keep changing... haha. i slept wif mi Pipa (my musical instrument lar...) a few moments ago, wif the pipa case in standing position leaning against e wall beside mi bed..den sumhow e case toppled over and hit mi forehead... 'kung!' ow... but luckily e case was empty... (e Pipa was on mi bed, remember?). haha otherwise it would b worse. fandi asked me if i wanna go for dance class wif her, sounds quite fun. i feel like doing tat for mi NYAA physical recreation, but e audition day is TOMORROW, and e place is all e way in bugis... erm... should i go or should i not?? mayb i should go peel flower petals...haha.

2004-02-06T06:02:00.000-08:00

fridae nite rox man!! so gd to slack... can feel the weight sliding off my shoulders for once... :) but tat irritating guy nx door is holding a party rite now... tat loud music blaring away in e background... haix...

todae got council investiture (saw steff in FBI.. STEFF, U RAWK!!:))...so we skipped aep... but hw muz zhao4 jiao1... haix. den we went for health screening, so many students and only 3 pple to attend to us... so the whole process took quite long, ate into my cca time...

chatting wif mi ex classmate online now... really miss her. um, jayne, if u r reading this, i wanna tell u i really miss u!!! and yiling, and rongqian, and yanting and wanqi.... wanna go out someday?

2004-02-05T02:18:00.000-08:00

chatting on msn now... feeling much better... yay!! :) went for dental appointment todae... got my retainers. now i can't even speak well..if u see me tomolo u may think i m speaking tamil... haha... :)

2004-02-05T02:06:00.000-08:00

woke up tis morning to feel as if i haven't slept for a wk...so tired...yar, i wasn't in my best mood todae, so sorry if i acted a little strange...eh, dun take it to heart. :)

2004-02-04T05:28:00.000-08:00

feeling a little bit down today... i am so tired, so sick of everything... i can't wait for the weekend to start... but i probably don't get to rest even during the wk end... mountains and mountains of homework up ahead... gimme a break... i am tired...

2004-02-03T07:00:00.000-08:00

Happy B'dae Regina!

yup, todae's regina's bdae...sang a bdae song for her in class (she wanted the marilyn monroe verson of the song at first...). :) v tired... but finally, i survived the cl test... this whole wk dun haf test already! yay!

2004-01-28T23:04:00.000-08:00

waiting in the library for cca to start... todae rain the whole dae ah... shiok man... such a fine weather to sleep, too bad we still haf to come to sch...arrgh... suwan drew a fake wound on my left hand... then i bluf pple saying tt it's cat scratch. hee hee...
yest aep lesson so fun... ha ha, mr ellis posed for us... standing up... lying down...looking despaired...and "nude" descending the stairs... haa haa... yanting's picture of yeenseen was really funny and she couldn't stop laughing when she finished..(yeenseen, if you are reading this, pls go to yanting and demand to see your portrait... :)) helen did one front-on picture of mr ellis and it turned out to look like mr bean... bwhaahaa...

2004-01-28T01:15:00.000-08:00

got my braces out yest... the process was dead painful... ow..the dentist went tugging and digging away at my teeth and gums... then i had problems brushing my teeth... yeah, my gums bleed... urgh.

yay! 3/1 (my class) is making its class tee! haha... can't wait to see how it will turn out... :)

2004-01-26T05:06:00.000-08:00

haiya...so tired. homework driving me crazy. just got a combined blog wif dor, yay! gotta do hw liao... i'll blog tomolo.

2004-01-24T19:25:00.000-08:00

woo...! finally, my first blog entry... yes yiling, i know u r proud of me... thanx...!! aniwae, it's the end of the cny hols, so sad. AND I HAVEN'T FINISH MY HOMEWORK!!! sigh...i'll blog later...